Even emotional fluctuations can’t help but be blindly out of control towards you
任由你摆布 只求得 一点关注
rèn yóu nǐ bǎi bù zhǐ qiú dé yī diǎn guān zhù
Allowing you to manipulate me, just seeking a bit of attention
容身之处 像 无色剧毒
róng shēn zhī chù xiàng wú sè jù dú
Place of refuge, like colorless poison
囊中之物 对理性太过高估
náng zhōng zhī wù duì lǐ xìng tài guò gāo gū
Things in the pocket, overestimating rationality
在无形之中 将我逮捕
zài wú xíng zhī zhōng jiāng wǒ dǎi bǔ
Invisibly, capturing me
我输得 体无完肤
wǒ shū dé tǐ wú wán fū
I lose so badly that I’m left with no intact skin
拿灵魂 赌注
ná líng hún dǔ zhù
Betting my soul
像 无色剧毒
xiàng wú sè jù dú
Like colorless poison
囊中之物 对感性太过低估
náng zhōng zhī wù duì gǎn xìng tài guò dī gū
Things in the pocket, underestimating sensitivity
在无形之中 被你下蛊
zài wú xíng zhī zhōng bèi nǐ xià gǔ
Invisibly, being cursed by you
Song Interpretation
Short Summary
The song "终身门徒" by 陈势安 (Andrew Tan) expresses a powerful narrative about devotion, self-sacrifice, and the blind submission to love and power. Through vivid imagery, the lyrics describe the turmoil of being overwhelmed by admiration and the consequences of losing oneself in the pursuit of attention and validation.
Detailed Insights
The song begins by portraying the inability to escape the overwhelming intensity of love and admiration, which leads to a loss of control and a sense of mimicry. The protagonist, once ordinary, finds himself elevated to a position of worship and adoration, but this comes at the cost of his autonomy and sanity, likened to addiction. The lyrics contrast this with a sobering realization that, despite the external praise, the protagonist is ultimately a fool, losing himself completely.
As the song progresses, it explores themes of manipulation and blind devotion, where the protagonist allows himself to be controlled, seeking attention and affection, despite the emotional and psychological toll. The idea of being trapped in a poisonous refuge is central to the song’s meaning, symbolizing the destructive nature of obsession and the overestimation of rationality while underestimating the power of emotions and sensitivity. Ultimately, the protagonist's soul becomes the price he pays, becoming a lifelong disciple to a force that controls him invisibly.